Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Comma Vol.1, Ep.4

I found one of my journals with a bunch of my dfh letters! Expect a lot of randomness, coming at you!


"You know Michael, I wish you'd stop by for more than just losing your police tail" -Madelyn Weston (Burn Notice)

DFH,

I can't wait to curl up next to you and watch TV until we fall asleep. I love the sleep timer on my TV!

"I gotta take the over the roof and down the rain gutter exit." -Michael Weston (Burn Notice)

Haha! I can't wait to laugh out loud with you - I wonder what your laugh will sound like and if you'll love mine.

Love You Forever,

Charity (Your Last Name)

Comma Vol.1, Ep.3

One of my favorite blogs to follow is http://dearhusbands.blogspot.com/ and it is pretty much awesome. I actually went to college with most or all of the andalasia ladies, and yes, they are as awesome as their blog. Here is one of my own contributions to the dfh phenomenon. Love!

Dear Future Husband,

I hope you're willing to dance with me. I don't really know how to dance - like ballroom - but I know basic steps and I love love love to twirl. So if you can twirl me, I'll be happy.

Love You Forever,

Charity Ellen (Your Last Name)

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Eroteme Vol.2, Ep.1


99 Questions - Comment below or tweet me @livehappilyever with the number and your answer and I'll give you my answer, too. Happy Answering!

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
5:Do you like to use post-it notes?
6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
8:Do you have freckles?
9:Do you always smile for pictures?
10:What is your biggest pet peeve?
11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
12:Have you ever peed in the woods?
13:What about pooped in the woods?
14:Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
15:Do you chew your pens and pencils?
16:How many people have you slept with this week?
17:What size is your bed?
18:What is your Song of the week?
19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
20:Do you still watch cartoons?
21:Whats your least favorite movie?
22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
23:What do you drink with dinner?
24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
25:What is your favorite food?
26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
27:Last person you kissed/kissed you?
28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
31:Can you change the oil on a car? 32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
33:Ever ran out of gas?
34:Favorite kind of sandwich?
35:Best thing to eat for breakfast?
36:What is your usual bedtime?
37:Are you lazy?
38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
39:What is your Chinese astrological sign?
40:How many languages can you speak?
41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
43:Are you stubborn?
44:Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
45:Ever watch soap operas?
46:Are you afraid of heights?
47:Do you sing in the car?
48:Do you sing in the shower?
49:Do you dance in the car?
50:Ever used a gun?
51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
52:Do you think musicals are cheesy?
53:Is Christmas stressful?
54:Ever eat a pierogi?
55:Favorite type of fruit pie?
56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
57:Do you believe in ghosts?
58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
59:Take a vitamin daily?
60:Wear slippers?
61:Wear a bath robe?
62:What do you wear to bed?
63:First concert?
64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
65:Nike or Adidas?
66:Cheetos Or Fritos?
67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
69:Ever take dance lessons?
70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
71:Can you curl your tongue?
72:Ever won a spelling bee?
73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
74:Own any record albums?
75:Own a record player?
76:Regularly burn incense?
77:Ever been in love?
78:Who would you like to see in concert?
79:What was the last concert you saw?
80:Hot tea or cold tea?
81:Tea or coffee?
82:Sugar or snickerdoodles?
83:Can you swim well?
84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
85:Are you patient?
86:DJ or band, at a wedding?
87:Ever won a contest?
88:Ever have plastic surgery?
89:Which are better black or green olives?
90:Can you knit or crochet?
91:Best room for a fireplace?
92:Do you want to get married?
93:If married, how long have you been married?
94:Who was your HS crush?
95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
96:Do you have kids?
97:Do you want kids?
98:What's your favorite color?
99:Do you miss anyone right now?

Apostrophe Vol.26, Ep.53

Good Morning, World!

Today, I am thankful for good friends! Friends who go shopping with me for hours, keep me from purchasing MORE movies, share fries dipped in a chocolate shake, and lend me their power cord when mine breaks.

I am thankful for christmas lights, dropping temperatures that mean snow is near, and firelight on a cold and starry december night.

I am thankful for warm blankets, a new toothbrush, and just dance 3. Those three things aren't really related, except in that I am thankful for all of them.

I am thankful for good memories, discovering habits handed down from grandparents, and old friends, as close to me as family, who love me as me and don't expect me to be anyone else.

I am thankful for my family; father, mother, and brothers, my sneaky dog, and my sweet cat. Thank You, God, for parents who care for and support me, brothers who love me, a dog who comes when he's called, and a cat who loves only me (and my mother on good days).

And I am thankful for you, whoever you are, far or near. Thanks for reading, commenting, and challenging me and each other.

What are you thankful for?


Sunday, November 27, 2011

Caret Vol.1, Ep.3

Outline from today's sermon at church:
What's my top priority?
Mark 12:28-34

And one of the scribes came up and heard them disputing with one another, and seeing that he answered them well, asked him, "Which commandment is the most important of all?" Jesus answered, "The most important is, 'Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.' The second is this: 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no other commandment greater than these." And the scribe said to him, "You are right, Teacher. You have truly said that he is one, and there is no other besides him. And to love him with all the heart and with all the understanding and with all the strength, and to love one's neighbor as oneself, is much more than all whole burnt offerings and sacrifices." And when Jesus saw that he answered wisely, he said to him, "You are not far from the kingdom of God." And after that no one dared to ask him any more questions. (Mark 12:28-34 ESV)

1. When our view of God is small, our spiritual life will be mediocre.

2. We are to wholly love God.
a. We must love God with pure devotion.
b. We are to love God passionately.
c. We are to love God intellectually.
d. We are to love God powerfully lived out.

3. If we love God, we still love our neighbor.

4. Internal attitude is more important than external actions.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Asterisk Vol.1, Ep.1

Fabulous Finds!

Pinterest (pinterest.com): If you're not on pinterest and you love beautiful things, get on over to the website to request an invite. You can even follow me! (u: cebella) Below are a few of my favorite things that I pinned today! Enjoy!

As someone who is constantly losing everything, keys, phone, my mind, etc, this is a cute way to hang keys. It's recycled wood siding board, vintage baby blocks, paint, glue, nails, and screw in cup hooks. Super easy! And so much fun to personalize! I'm sensing a homemade wedding gift in my future! Love!

If you're not the handy type, rumor has it that you can order a ready made key rack here.








I love this super simple decorating idea! You'll need: Glass Vase, Buttons, Water, and Flowers.

Can life be more simple?

Change up colors for different occasions. Red and green for Christmas, Red and pink for Valentine's, Red, white, and blue for Independence Day, etc. (I'm sensing I'll need a lot of red buttons.) Add a ribbon or raffia for a little more glamour.

Hint: do floating tests on your buttons, I like it when the buttons sink to the bottom, but it's a preference, make sure it looks the way you want it to. Love!

This is genius!

All you need are strawberries and a straw.

Line the straw up on the bottom of the strawberry, push through until stem is removed in one fluid motion.

Perfect for finger food parties and dipping in chocolate.

I feel good about this simple trick, I feel like I'm wasting less strawberry and making a smaller mess. Love!

With the holidays upon us, we need our homes to be welcoming and warm, and look good too.

All you need are candles, cinnamon sticks, and string. It can be helpful to use a little dollop of glue on the candle to adhere the cinnamon sticks to the candle. I love it when the string is wrapped several times and then tied in these loopy bows. Beautiful!

Remember, safety first! Light candles after glue has dried, make sure string is hanging free away from any other candles, place all candles on fire resistant base, and never leave open flames unattended. (I think my firemen friends are satisfied.) Love!


Friday, November 25, 2011

Ellipses Vol.4, Ep.1

Read along and listen to the original telling here: Ellipses Vol.4, Ep.1 - Classic Ethan & Evan Story.

Classic Ethan & Evan Story.

Once upon a time, in a big house, on top of a mountain, next to a river, down the road from the most beautiful pine forest, there lived two boys: Ethan and Evan!

This story is called "Evan and the Desperate Cry for Help"

"Help! Help!"

Evan ran through the forest and all the way up the road, around the porch to the front door of his house, he twisted and jiggled the handle but it wouldn't open.

"Oh, no! Oh, no!"

He ran to one side of the house, he jiggled and twisted the door [handle], but it wouldn't open!

"Oh, no!"

He ran all the way to the other side of the house to the family room door.

He jiggled and twisted, but it wouldn't open, he started to hyperventilate!

And then he ran down around all the way to the kitchen side of the house again, and tried to push the code into the garage door, but it wouldn't open!

Then he ran to the garage side door and jiggled and twisted but it wouldn't open!

"Help me!

He looked around his house.

"Dear Jesus, please! Someone has to be home I have to go to the bathroom!"

Then he started doing his "I have to pee" dance, and he danced and he danced!

Then he saw his salvation, the weeds!

So he took care of business... in the weeds.

Then of course what happened, his mother comes to the door, sees him standing knee deep, trousers down.

"Evan Jehosaphat Smithers, you are in so much trouble!"

"I really had to go Mommy!

She held a hand in front of her eyes and said "when you are finished, you will come in, I will leave the kitchen door open and you will wash your hands without touching anything!"

Evan finished taking care of business, pulled up his pants, and walked sullenly into the house.

Mommy looked at him and looked away. "Please wash your hands."

Then she asked "Evan, why didn't you come inside the house to use the bathroom?"

"I tried, but every door was locked and I couldn't open the garage."

"Well, Evan did you try the back door?"

"What?"

"The back door behind the garage"

"I tried the garage door but it wouldn't..."

She said "No, honey, the back door, the back door was open because me and your brother and your dad were all swimming. You ran around the entire front of the house and didn't see us. You could have come to the back door, it was open. We locked the other doors because we couldn't see them from the pool.

Evan finished washing his hands and said, "Mommy, you're so cruel! If I had known you were swimming, I would have peed in the pool!"

The End.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Comma Vol.1, Ep.1

Dear Friends,

Happy Thanksgiving! I am so thankful for you! I hope your thanksgiving was as wonderful and delicious as mine.

My family and I spent most of the day cooking together. We had all of our thanksgiving favorites: turkey, stuffing, & gravy; mashed potatoes; green bean casserole; sweet potato pie; corn muffins, and cranberry jello. (my favorite!) We're taking a little break from food to go to a movie at the budget theatre in Greenfield. I'm finally going to see "the help" and I am so excited! When we get back, we'll have pecan and apple pies. We also have some leftover pumpkin caramel kringle left over from breakfast. (If you're ever in wisconsin, you must have O&H kringle! It's better than cheese - I'm from Wisconsin so you know if I think it's better than cheese, it has to be good!)

Our thanksgiving tradition is to go around the table before we pray and say at least one thing we're thankful for. We've done that for as long as I can remember.

What are your traditions? Is there something you and your family do that make your time together unique?

My favorite part of today, amidst all of the cooking craziness, was receiving text messages from friends all over the states! It's wonderful to reconnect and just want to let you know I miss you all!

Off to the movie!

Love Always,

Charity


Parenthesis Vol.1, Ep.1 (Family)

Favoritism kills families.

I know, sometimes, it's unintentional and unconscious. But it's wrong, it harms people and fractures relationships.

Okay, jump back. Favoritism is defined as the favoring of one person or group over others with equal claims. For example, a parent showing partiality consistently to one child over another child. An employer repeatedly praising the work of one employee while ignoring another who has performed equally well. An artist detailing the characteristics of one person in a family portrait while painting the others with broader - less defined - strokes. It's favoritism. It's wrong. Don't do it.

Oh, if only that were the end.

Obviously, in human relationships, there are people you are going to connect with more than others. It happens in the world, it happens in communities, and it happens in families. It happens. It's okay. That does not mean we have any less responsibility to treat one another justly and kindly.

I had a lot of roommates in college, we had problems, as all roommates do if you're honest. Some problems we resolved well. Some problems we did not resolve at all. However, I did my best to treat them well and similarly. And I expected the same treatment from them. When you're an adult, you act like one.

Children act like children. They don't understand why Daddy gave Susie a new bike and Billy has to mow the lawn to earn his own. Or why Mommy reads two picture books to Joe at bedtime, but puts on an audiobook for Jake. These examples are perfectly acceptable parenting techniques if the motives of the parents are for the benefit of the child and, as necessary, explained to the child in a developmentally appropriate manner.

To illustrate:

Acceptable, Susie is 3 and received a tricycle for her birthday, her older brother Billy is 12, has a perfectly good bicylce, but wants a BMX bike to keep up with his neighborhood friends.

Unacceptable, Susie and Billy are twins.

(Totally okay, and preferred, that children learn the value of their possessions and work for them in acceptable age and developmentally appropriate ways.)

Acceptable, Joe is scared of the dark and needs individual face time to fall asleep. Since his dad's deployment, Jake sleeps sounder to the recording of Daddy's voice reading a favorite story.

Unacceptable, Mommy claims a "headache" whenever Jake asks for a picture book story, every night.

(Totally okay, and awesome, if you record your voice telling a story to play for your children at bedtime, even better if it's a live performance.)

It often occurs that when adults return to their parent's or grandparent's home, for a gathering such as thanksgiving, they also return to the roles they have held since childhood. No matter how much adults have changed, healed the wounds of childhood, or moved on... a remark, a relational pattern, can reopen those wounds and they revert to their previous pattern of survival and the cycle of favoritism continues.

If this sounds familiar, be encouraged, you're not alone.

If you would like to see this changed for good, be aware, it takes time, effort, and a lot of God-given grace.

If you're a parent, know that you don't have to continue the cycle, you can instill positive and healthy relational patterns in your child's life.

It's worth it.

As a member of a family, an experienced child care provider, and (hopefully) a future mother, I urge you to be intentional and conscious of the effect your attentions, your words, and your actions, are having on the people and the relationships within your family.

Pray. (Favorite quote: "Prayer does not change God, but it changes him [her] who prays." -Søren Kierkegaard)

Strive, not to be fair, life is not fair, but to be kind, be just, and do your best.


Who was the favorite in your family? How does that make you feel?

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Ellipses Vol.1, Ep.2


Cora

Cora hurried down the street to the library - Peter was supposed to meet her our front after he finished shelving the books that had been left out throughout the day. She slowed in front of the tall brick building, and for the first time noticed that she hadn't been the only one rushing down the street. Cora's eyes sparked at the idea that any soldier would take such an interest in her. Indignant, she fumed as he approached at a more relaxed pace.

"Doesn't he know who I am" she thought to herself. "My father is a well respected and upstanding citizen, and my eldest sisters are about to marry into the most powerful families in the county."

The soldier sauntered by Cora - who stood stoically with her arms crossed - staunchly ignoring the intruder. Peter chose that moment to bounce down the steps - scaring Cora high nigh to kingdom come. Her scream drew looks from several passers-by. Peter cautiously touched her arm as Cora burst into a fit of laughter, tears forcing their release. "Are you okay?"

Cora wiped her eyes and said "Sorry - let's go to the Drake's before it gets too late." She grasped the basket full of food - glanced around for the intruder and they hurried off as Peter muttered "crazy girl" under his breath.

Eroteme Vol.1, Ep.1


I compiled a list of 26 questions for you to answer in the comment sections or ask me. Post one number from the list below and I'll answer it honestly in a future post or comment.

Promise.

1. Favorite band/musician?
2. Ever been to a concert of favorite?
3. Who I like and why I like them?
4. Hardest thing I've ever been through?
5. My best friend?
6. My favorite movie?
7. Do I smoke/drink?
8. Have any tattoos or piercings?
9. As a child, what I wanted to be as an adult?
10. Relationship with my parents?

11. One of my insecurities?
12. What I find attractive in opposite sex?
13. Favorite place to shop?
14. My eye color?
15. Relationship status as of right now?
16. Favorite song at the moment?
17. A random fact about myself?
18. Age I get mistaken for?
19. Where I want to be right now?
20. Favorite childhood memory?

21. My idea of a perfect date?
22. My biggest pet peeves?
23. Last time I cried?
24. What would I do if (...fill in the blank...)?
25. My favorite (...fill in the blank...)?
26. (Make up your own question - make sure you post the question with the number in the comment section...)

Caret Vol.1, Ep.2


2 Peter 3:9

Repentance.

Not a pleasant word.

I don't like that word. I don't like what it means.

It's difficult to repent.

But I need that word. I need to do what it means.

Forgiveness is such a sweeter word.

At least when I'm the one being forgiven.

It's difficult to forgive.

It amazes me that God can forgive me, that He loves me more than enough.

How can I not repent of the sin that I have done against Him?

Sin keeps me from Him, from His love, from His forgiveness.

I repent, I believe, I am forgiven.

Now and forever.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Apostrophe Vol.26, Ep.52


I love planning weddings.

Okay, let me back up. I love planning anything. I love plans. I love following plans and being organized and having everything turn out beautifully because that's how I planned it and I made it happen. I feel accomplished after something I have planned works out well. I am not inflexible, I do not get upset when circumstances cause a plan to veer off course, I simply adapt. In fact, I always have contingency plans and back up plans because, well, that means more planning. It's a win-win!

And planning weddings is like the ultimate challenge! It's a huge undertaking! And you only get one shot to get it right. (Well, most people only take one shot...) And in the end, it's only the first day of the rest of your life with your spouse. And you have at least 1440 chances every day after your wedding to get it right. Your wedding is just one day.

Keep that in mind, it's just one day. It's important, yes. But every day with your spouse is important.

Your wedding is not just about you and your spouse. It is about you and your spouse, but it's also about your families, your friends, and your lives coming together. It's a lot to manage. And most importantly, as Christians, it's about God. In your lives as individuals, and in your life together, it's God's plan that will work, not yours. It's difficult for me to admit that, all the time. But it's true. And really, if I want a plan to work, I must leave it in God's hands, and let Him do what He wills.

Some people are all big picture when it comes to weddings. All they see is two people getting married, committing to love and cherish one another for the rest of their lives. They don't care about the little things like food and location, they just want to get married and get going.

Some people are all details. From the arrangement of the flowers to the amount of food on each plate to the spelling of guests' names on place cards. And they miss the big picture that they are making a lifelong commitment that they will be renewing daily.

Like a mosaic, you can stand apart and see the whole, or you can stand really close and focus on the individual pieces, but it's best to move in between. Get close and take care of the details: location, flowers, catering, guest lists, decor. Then step back and appreciate the wonder: God is joining you with this person for the rest of your lives and He's going to be with you every step of the way.

Somewhere in the middle, find the perspective of others. You might have older relatives at your wedding who will appreciate being recognized for their own commitment. And young children who don't understand yet, but may remember the seriousness with which you took your vows and the happiness you exuded as you and your spouse prayed together as husband and wife for the first time. The bridesmaid who is so happy for you, but heartbroken and hopeless for herself. The groomsman who can't wait to get out of this monkey suit. Your parents who are a little scared for you, maybe remembering you as a child, and scared for themselves as their own lives are changing. And your perpetually late cousin, who can't find her way out of her own yard on a clear day, but would be devastated if she missed a minute of your wedding.

Make a note in the program. Take photos with purpose. Write thank you notes that aren't for wedding gifts. Plan your ceremony with care. Relax at your reception. Connect with each guest. Enjoy God's day. Everything else will be okay.

(my bff and I at her wedding)

Ampersand, Vol.1, Ep.2


What is most important in long-lasting romantic relationships?

Some say chemistry. Others, common interests. And, still others, commitment. I think everyone has a different answer of what they believe is most important to maintain a healthy relationship with a lifelong partner. And while I think chemistry, common interests, and commitment are important to sustaining a relationship between significant others, I don't think they are crucial.

In fact, I am fairly certain that the vast majority of the world does not share my view. I believe that theological agreement is most important in maintaining a healthy growing romantic lifelong relationship. That's right. I said "theological agreement." That means that we believe the same things about God. For example, God created the world in six 24 hour days. God sent his son, Jesus, to die on the cross for me, so I could go to heaven because without Jesus I am going to hell. I deserve to go to hell because I have sinned (that's right, me, I have sinned, once, twice, a hundred times, any which way I deserve to go to hell). Only faith in Jesus saves me from hell and only Jesus gives me the gift of eternal life with Him. These are the beliefs that significant others must agree on. There are other nuances of the Christian faith which are also crucial to the success of marriage. Interpretation of Ephesians 5, for example. (Look it up and comment below with your interpretation.)

Whether or not you and your significant other agree with my interpretation is not as important as if you and your sig oth's interpretations agree. Get it?

Also, helpful if your faith and interpretations are based on the truth of the Bible. That takes time, so the second more important aspect of a successful relationship would be a mutual willingness to learn, grow, and accept theological correction as necessary. So even if your interpretation changes, as long as you and your sig oth agree and base changes on the Bible, and you both agree, you're good.

If you agree, what would you put third?

If you don't agree, what's most important to you?

I'd love to start a dialogue and hear your point of view.


Monday, November 21, 2011

Apostrophe Vol.21, Ep.89

An Arabic Christian man, a former Muslim, spoke at my college, he spoke about how he was in constant danger of losing his life because he had betrayed his Muslim faith. After chapel, I walked by him and he hugged me. It was the strangest experience of my life. I don't let anyone I don't know touch me, much less hug me, but I was overwhelmed with such compassion, admiration, and fear that I allowed it. What was even more surprising is that he saw something in me to comfort and protect. It was one of the most profound hugs of my life. I don't know if he's still alive or even remember his name. But I still smell the spices that lingered on his skin and enveloped me in his embrace.

Ellipses Vol.3, Ep.1

So here it is. Our story.

I may never meet you. But if I could choose, the following is how we could meet. Could fall in love, marry, and live for the rest of our lives. Or at least a lovely, albeit realistic, option.

Perhaps we will live in the same neighborhood. And being environmentally conscious we walk or take public transit to work. We may have the same taste in coffee shops. And need caffeine to wake up each morning. And for several weeks, perhaps months, we will have lived parallel lives. I enter Starbucks as you leave, you take the 6:50 train, I the 7:10. Perhaps you occupy an apartment in the modern skyscraper across the street with the polite doorman that I smile at every morning as I exit my well established, far less expensive though nearly as glorious, apartment building. We may shop at the same bodega, perhaps order from the same thai place on 5th. And you may order something new every time you call in, wanting to embrace the vibrant offerings. While I stick with my usual “sesame chicken and brown rice” and never dare to expand beyond. I’m certain we don’t read the same books or watch the same television shows or even listen to the same music. Those things seem too trivial to matter. But perhaps we laugh at the same jokes and accept new friends in the same warm and open manner. You must be a little older, I insist. And you will likely have more experience in the ways of affection and love. As I have none. We will likely have experienced similar frustrations, unable to find a willing partner until now. I would prefer if you had never felt you loved someone before you met me, but I am aware that is highly unlikely. And perhaps you should know now. Before this goes too far, that I will have loved none but you. A young girl’s crush, I’ve had. Infatuation, I’ve fought. Like? I’ve liked a lot. But love? Never love. You’ll be the first and I want you to be the only. So when we meet in our coffee shop after a mix up with our drinks. And you pursue me, as clueless as I will be. If you ask me, please mean it.

That’s how we’ll meet, I think. Some joke told while waiting in line. A string of words that will be completely lost on my coffee deprived mind, but I’ll smile and give you a half laugh. Turn away confused and thinking too much about what you seemed to have said. You may be discouraged from pursuing any further conversation, I’ve certainly missed my opportunity to confirm my interest. But you won’t give up. You see something in me. Feel something. Something that you’ve been missing. Something you’ve waited to find. Something that only I have. So you will press on. You must be direct, no one has ever succeeded before, in fact, I don’t recall the last time someone tried. Being direct but careful is the only way to make an impression on me. I will doubt your meaning, your intentions, and perhaps assume that you are joking in some cruel manner. So be consistent and pursue me.

A week or two will pass until you figure out how parallel our lives are.

I will have figured it out within an hour but will not point it out until you read this. (I’m much too quick about these things and it’s my side of the story so I get to be the brilliant, and oft times too cocky, one.)

And suddenly, we’re in the periphery of one another’s lives. You conveniently begin running five minutes late and we continue to line up, sit, and walk in our normal routine, but within such proximity that it’s rude not to acknowledge one another. So after receiving a week of my polite, yet warm, smiles. You summon the courage to begin a conversation with me. Perhaps we make a game of it. A contest of who can tell the best joke, make up the best story about a fellow commuter, or share the most profound secret. You will win because you will risk. I will win because I will listen and hear your heart. Keep opening up to me.

We likely continue in this pattern for weeks. Gently relaxing into an easy and comfortable relationship of pleasantries. Then you offer to buy my coffee one morning. And the next, you have it in hand as you wait for me outside our shop. I protest, but you insist. I hide a thank you note in your briefcase one morning. You tuck it in your wallet and I happen to glimpse it one day. Nearly every morning, I find you with my coffee in hand, standing outside the shop, waiting. I feel guilty for taking advantage and I find a way to slip a little something onto your person about once a week. One time, a small pack of your favorite gum in your coat pocket. Another, a stick of lip balm. A baggie of my top secret family recipe chocolate chip oatmeal cookies. A fortune cookie. And then, in a feverish burst of courage, I write my phone number on the inside of a matchbook and drop it into your coat pocket.

You don’t call. Hours pass, a day, a week. Nothing. We continue our coffee dance but I hold off on any small tokens. Two weeks. One morning, you miss the train and I get my own coffee on the way to my office. The next I have an early morning meeting and drive into the city, you drink both coffees and eat the apology scone you purchased to make up for missing the day before. You wonder where I am and also why you’ve never thought of buying two coffees before, you’ve never felt so energized at work. Our meetings thin out to nearly less than once a week due to vacations, business trips, oversleeping, and just the simple complications of life. Then a month passes, and I don’t see you.

I consider calling you, but I have resolved to never google a man until he’s asked me out.

TBC...

Caret Vol.1, Ep.1 (Eternal Matters)

Isaiah 45:9; 64:6, 8

Each person’s life is different, each a work of art - copies are worth less - only the original is worth the highest price.

God’s design for me is different than what he has planned for you.

God is in control - not me. Who am I to tell Him what He’s doing isn’t fair? Do I ever say life isn’t fair when someone else is going through a tough time? Do I tell God that I should have just as many difficulties as that person has?

Ampersand, Vol.1, Ep.1

An ampersand is this: &

Now you know! I totally didn't know five minutes ago.

I should really call these unstarted relationships. As I have never had a boyfriend. But relationships are more than just romantic relationships. So these postings will be about relationships I do have or want to have.


My bff is my most favoritist person in the world. We met our freshman year of college, were neighbors our sophomore year, and roommates junior and senior year. Since I have moved several hours away after graduation, we generally see each other 2-3 times a year.

Last year, I drove up twice to see her in Minnesota for her bachelorette party and wedding. She drove down to Illinois, when I was in grad school, so we could celebrate her birthday and see Cake Boss in Waukegan. It was awesome!

This past summer she drove down to Illinois for a long weekend of exploring Chicagoland and hanging out with me, my family, my nanny boys, and Simon. It was the highlight of my summer!

We are currently planning our next adventure, SPRING BREAK 2012! Crossing our fingers that we'll go somewhere warm where we can get decent tans. It will also be fun to experience a real spring break. Between her having choir tour EVERY YEAR in college over Spring Break. And me having other things: visiting my grandparents, getting my wisdom teeth out, redecorating my parent's bathroom, and working. We never got to experience a REAL spring break together, so I am totally excited about doing whatever we will be doing!

What do people do on Spring Break? What did you do?

Also, who's your favorite person?

Apostrophe Vol.26, Ep.51 (My Unfinished Life)


I am over halfway through my 26th year of life.

It's difficult, this living of life.

Especially now.

These past four years, now into the fifth, are like wandering around a new territory with no markers, street signs, or really any semblance of trail at all. Occasionally, a path will appear and I'll follow it for a while. A job. A relationship. A degree. But the path eventually ends, diverts, or becomes unbearable. So I jump off. I wander around for a while. Until I find another path.

I feel completely alone in these wanderings. Mentally, I know I am not. However, emotionally, I'm forging this path alone because no one else has the exact same path that I am on, that I have taken. It must be the American in me. The individual independence and desire to pull myself up by my bootstraps. The truth is... I don't want to be on this path alone. And I'm not sure why I haven't allowed myself to acknowledge that there are others close to me.


Anyone else feel like they are alone on their journey?

Ellipses Vol.2, Ep.1

Marcy

“I am the teacher!” she spoke with such force that the birds quieted in the trees. In frustration, she kept up her anger march through the jungle. Her face turned upward and she railed at the sky. Her students were driving her mad. The three rotten monsters had forced her to contemplate chewing off her arm. Their refusal to cooperate and their insane annoyance pervaded her mind. Suddenly tripping, she fell onto the road, flat on her face. Face down, she pounded the dust with her fists before hoisting herself up. She brushed off her dress, and her arms stilled as her ears perked at the sound of coming horsemen. A quiet scan of the trees revealed a likely prospect. Hiking up her dusty dress she shuffled her tracks and tiptoed to her pick. Within half a minute, Marcy was high in the tree visiting the monkeys with a finger to her lips. Soon a whole host of riders passed beneath her eyes. The leader slowed and stopped, commanded his men to spread out across the road and into the jungle. Marcy held her breath, not daring to move even though a million pairs of monkey eyes bored into her skull.


Ellipses Vol.1, Ep.1 (Unfinished Stories)

Cora

Once upon a time in a land far away...

A small village, the local storekeeper, and his five beautiful daughters. The two eldest, Abbey and Brita, about to be married to local boys - fine upstanding citizens - future mayer and judge - and quite handsome as well. The two youngest, Delia and Emily, young, flighty, and boy-crazy. The middle girl, always of her own mind, headstrong, and stubborn, the independent Cora. Working for her father at the store and over at the library. Cora filled her free time by cooking and baking any extra food stuffs to take to the poor families that lived on the outskirts of town.

I don’t know why Cora worked so hard, perhaps she felt the need to prove to the world that she was just as desirable as her older sisters and smarter than the younger girls. In any case, Cora was the most beloved of all five girls in town mainly because she had time to care about people while her sisters were involved in other pursuits.

In the spring, the Royal Guard returned to their training grounds at Fort George, just two miles from the village Night time activities erupted with the arrival of the soldiers. The pub overflowed and campfires glistened on hillsides every evening.

During the day, the enlisted, those who had time off, would lounge outside the store, on the wooden rocking chairs. Staring through the glistening windows into the neat and tidey room full of mounds of goods carefully arranged across tables and on shelfs. Beyond the store were four more large rooms were the females of town would wash so to pay for food stuffs from the store.